My family watches way too many movies or something. I usually look to them for a source of collectivism rather than the blue blooded American bullshit that is seen far too often these days, especially from my dad's family. But, there we were gathered at a table for twenty, every member accounted for. Even the four dogs that occupied two acre backyard seemed to have little American flags painted on their hides. Pardon my ranting. The food was wonderful, and it was just amazing to be with my mom's family for Thanksgiving. It meant a lot to me..
That night and the next day was spent with my cousins, minus Megan and Jessica. I can't recall much other than playing with the dogs, climbing trees, watching YouTube videos, and playing sports. And then we told scary stories and I really freaked out the youngest, Ethan (who also happens to be my twin and new BFF) with the whole Bloody Mary thing. He rarely let go of my hand for the next couple hours..until he wasn't that scared anymore. The only downfall of the evening was my Aunt, who, if you know me well enough, is a total and complete bitch. She was trying to start shit with KC, Cameron, and I, which is just fucking ridiculous..in my opinion.
KC, by the way..before I get ahead of myself, is the best person of my life. I've missed her so much ever since she went to Riverside, and she's changed since I saw her last. Not in a bad way, but she's matured into such a woman. I can't help but be jealous just because I've always wanted the freedom that she now has. But I'm just so proud of her and happy for her. I've always admired her ever since we were little, for being such an uplifting and happy spirit, and being so smart..ahh. I'm going to miss her. And it was wonderful seeing her again.
It might've been the soda that I drank earlier that day, but I couldn't fall asleep at all last night. For about an hour I just lay awake on the living room floor counting my blessings and listening to my uncle snore in the other room. And then for a second everything just clicked, and I suddenly became aware of the past two days. I've never felt so complete and unstoppable in my whole life. The high school bullshit that's been putting me in this wretched slump..I'm so over it.
I'm SO glad I didn't go to Hollywood last night. What would I have gotten out of it? Intoxicated memories, bruises, and some guy's phone number in my back pocket, right? In those couple moments I felt infinite, with the soundtrack of KC's snoring and the hum of the refrigerator. It was so worth missing some stupid party.
So have a good weekend everyone.
Squowoowwwouow.
Kelsey Rae
