Fault Your Shcist.

This blog is completely necessary only because I feel only a little lost and confused amongst all this shit. I mean, I'm pretty sure that this qualifies as being shit. And sure he apologized for being a complete asshole, but that doesn't make it any less okay that it happened. I don't know..maybe I'm not taking this seriously enough. By I guess I'll learn in due time.

I'm not exactly sure what to think about today. All I really know is that I love my boyfriend and ice cream.

I'm gneiss. Don't take me for granite! God I'm a nerd..

Kelsey Rae

Ska In The Billiard Hall.

It was beyond amazing. It was probably the only show that I escaped from with no bruises and only a couple scratches. People from Riverside are so nice. It was kind of refreshing. So, I am apparently the nicest person from LA to a bunch of cool cats from SLC. He is GAY. And I got elbowed in the tit.

And now I'm sore as balls.

Kelsey Rae

Grown Up Stuff.

It's got me buggin' and the next two weeks are going to be incredibly annoying and chalked full of it. Which leaves me thinking that this summer is sounding less and less exciting the further I get into it. And now I'm left wondering, which sounds more appetizing?

A job that I might not get, but I'm in dire need of.

A two and a half hour class taking up my mornings for the next five weeks.

An incredibly boring part time job in a Los Angeles office that I'm going to have to battle traffic for the sake of friends and Jessica's debut practices.

Well, at least I still have my fallback at the end of summer, and hopefully that will cover books for the next semester. On the bright side of things for today, I finally have a car that I can practice driving on. License by the end of summer session hopefully?

Kelsey Rae

Bee Hill.

Blast that infernal wrong turn that lead us back to where we started. I love our adventures and my badly timed bodily functions. Well, I thought this song was essential to today.



Kelsey Rae

Trust Me.

So the last couple days have been quite interesting. And it's going to be a pretty tough road back I suppose. But it's alright. Wherever it leads, I'm willing to go. Cause it's just worth it.

In the meantime, I'm going to try to be there for my friends, and I'm going to be honest, and I'm going to find out what's best for me before anything else. So let's make the most of this summer. And let's go camping.

Kelsey Rae

Wtf Charlie Brown.

This week was exciting.
Today was best.
Much more to come.

And it's not even because I secretly want people to read it or anything. I just need to have it recorded. Written down. It's part of my secret crazy that so few know about. And the truth is that I'm fucking terrified. Tomorrow decides so much more than my future. And it scares me most because I know that I'll need more than just two peoples help with this. And I've been keeping my promise so well. Tomorrow. And I won't even find out until who knows when. But I can know tomorrow. I thought I would be able to sleep. I thought I would knock out after today. But sleep comes hard right now..I know that when you read this you'll get mad at me for not calling. But I just feel like being alone right now I guess.

Kelsey Rae

Speak Grapefruit.

Today was monumental. Well, not to me just at the moment, but in the great scheme of all things. One of those moments that I'll probably remember forever. One of those moments that I'll want to relive again and again. And it's true. Our speaker was the best that I've heard in the many graduations that I've been to. And it's true. My family is the most embarrassing, the most overbearing, and the most prideful bunch that I've come across. And it's true. I'm going to miss it. But there's so much to look forward to.

And, the BEST graduation gift that I'll ever receive. Sorry Chris, but this totally kicks your PS2's ASS.


2010 baby!!

And last but not least, the perfect end to a perfect day. The pure feeling of absolute bliss. Oh the joy of feeling warm and secure and loved!

Kelsey Rae

Go Time.

There's nothing better than the anticipation. And it's not that I'm proud of graduating. It's that I'm so proud of the person that I've become over the past four years. It's been challenging and sad and happy and confusing and complicated. And I wouldn't have had it any other way. I'm pretty sure high school happens far too soon for anybody to truly appreciate its true value. Or maybe that's just it. Maybe that's why we had tonight and will have tomorrow.

My mind is racing far too fast for me to record it all. I'll leave it to this.

Tomorrow I'm graduating. And even though I'm sad to see a chapter in my life end, and I'm sad that I won't see the greatest people of my life everyday, I'm trying my best to be excited for what the future holds for me. I'm sad that I won't be able to dick around anymore, but I'm glad that I'm going to have a fresh start next year, and I'll be able to work toward my dream.

Good night to you all. And thank you for the wonderful day. Year. Life.

Kelsey Rae

4/6.

I like it when I meet an older person who is incredibly boring and has nothing particularly interesting to say. Sure, they're fine people. But when it comes down to it, they're just lifeless and uninteresting. I wonder if they've been like that their whole lives. I wonder if they were those kids who constantly talked about their arching classes and never really laughed at jokes because they were offensive or distasteful. I wonder if maybe they found the love of his life because they were once smart and interesting young go-getters that had lost their spark, or because they got a little lucky and found an equally boring love.

And while they yap on and on about useless shit and drone on and on with a bored tone, I just wonder about how they were when they were my age. And if they dreamed of maybe being a doctor, or of joining the Peace Corps. And I just remind myself that I must never let myself get as boring as they are.

In the meantime I'm taking requests as to what song I want to humiliate myself across the internet with.

Kelsey Rae