Tissues & Prayers.

If you know me well enough you'd know that I love my family more than anything in the whole world, and the only reason I would leave them is to make a quick phone call to someone that I miss. You'd know that on my mom's side of my family, my cousins are like my brothers and sisters. My aunts and uncles are like my parents. And my grandparents. They were just the best. They were capable of anything and everything, and gifted with a family that loved them to the very extent that their hearts could offer. It's weird. I might not have loved much, but I know where my heart is, and where it's always going to be. I know where I'll come back to during loss and fear. It's always going to be here, this street. No matter where I live in ten years, twenty years, this is always going to be my home.

Today was difficult to fathom. I saw a woman lose the very being that she loved the most in the whole world. I saw a family crumble and start to grow back a little stronger together. I couldn't help but break down just a little bit..of course I had to escape to the backyard where no one could hear me crying. And then I had to be strong for the kids that look up to me. It was just difficult seeing everyone that I loved so much gathered for the worst possible reason, all with the same look of sadness in their eyes.

All I can hope for is be as lucky as him. To have a family that loves me completely. Who would drive from hours away at a moments notice to be at my side when I pass. To have a spouse who will spend my last days with me even if I can't talk or move much, and who'll never pity me or see me as a burden. To be surrounded by as much love my whole life as he was.

R.I.P. Antonio Respico.
You will be missed.

Kelsey Rae