Don't Go Quietly.

For a minute there it almost happened again.
My eyes swollen and painful and throbbing.
My face burning from the pain and sadness that had overcome me.

But this time I had a phone.
And this time I had two friends that somehow made everything better.
And instead of desperately clinging onto a pillow, I clung onto a tattered study guide that still has yet to be memorized. And not everything is better, but I'm once again able to lie emotionally naked in my own skin and be perfectly fine with it. It's times like this when I'm desperate to know who my friends are and to what limits they'll go for me. Because it's true. We all feel lonely and vulnerable sometimes. But I suppose every day is just a learning process that we go through in order to learn where we're at in our life and in other people's lives.

And I wrote it all down with a pen on piece of paper that will hopefully capture all my disappointments rather than letting them linger in my thoughts. And even though it breaks my heart just a little bit, there's no escaping the truth. It's disappointment on so many levels. To say the very least. But it doesn't keep me up at night because at least I know there are a few good people out there who understand me.

So I have this eerie feeling that I'm meant for so much more than this. I suppose I'll have to do my research before I make any irrational decisions.

Kelsey Rae